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2/18/09

A hypocrite’s paradoxes


What was that disturbed me when I was watching the movie Fashion, when I was reading K. Surendran’s novel Aruna?

Yes, it was the word vulgarity; it was the feeling of disgust. My bosom friend stipulates that I still have that moral stick in my hand and I have my cultural roots strong!

Any so called immoral relationship disturbs the radical me, be it in life or in fiction/celluloid. Is it because I am a hypocrite or is it because I am still a moralist?

I can stand such one-night stands, but I literally couldn’t stand the kind of relationship Aruna’s bro-in-law has with her. When I read that news about a virgin auctioning her virginity to rise funds for her higher education, I was in full praise of her. Its all fine with me when woman showing there sexual urge in films/fictions. But I can’t understand and accept certain relationship. When I read about or see such relations, I feel bitter as if its my lover who is sleeping with some other person, I feel bad as if my lover is having a clandestine relationship. I feel being cheated and I get mad.

Why the hell am I having such feelings? Is it just because I am a hypocrite or is there any thing beyond?

Ah! Who knows! Human beings’ minds some times behaves so strange. If you go on decoding madness and trying to find its patterns, life wont move on dude, instead it will get stuck like a clock that does not tick and is stuck at 12 p.m!

Hmmm, Kunju pointed it right I am silly and intelligent at the same time!

3 comments:

  1. really ammus, at times i do feel the same when i happen to be with certain scences.especially if its is being palyed by those who looks exactly like my love. wel its a nice post.and i do lve reading your writing.i love the words tht you use to explain things.thers is lot to learn from it.
    love you
    and happy birthday to you darla

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  2. hmm.. Although I cant comment about what's on your mind since I barely know you.. ur writing raises a lotta questions about a lotta things...

    //I can stand such one-night stands, but I literally couldn’t stand the kind of relationship Aruna’s bro-in-law has with her//

    May be u feel its okay that people do what their hearts n bodies desire but not to cheat and lie and be hypocrytic...

    // a virgin auctioning her virginity to rise funds for her higher education, I was in full praise of her//

    cos she doesn't hide what she is doin/what she feels she can do... She is not pretending.. I think the pretention is what bothers u...


    Anyways, :-) Donn see many posts, keep writing...

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